In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.  1 John 4:10

I cannot believe that the last time I posted something here was, well, more than a year ago. I am never a good writer to begin with and now I feel like I don’t even know a thing about writing anymore. Anyway, I just finished reading Max Lucado’s He chose the nails and I’m feeling a lot of emotions. I’ve been reading it every year since I got it in 2012, mostly I read it during the Lent and right now it’s the Lenten season so I picked it up again. I wanted to write something cohesive but I’m afraid I can’t do that. (I’m such a mess.) But hey, bear with me. I just really want to reiterate how crazy God’s love is. I know I would always describe God’s loves as crazy (I have a limited vocabulary, people) and honestly (I tried to widen my range) I just can’t find a better word because it really is!

Reading through this book for the nth time reminded how filthy my sins really are before Him. I know this isn’t entirely new and I guess my prayer in this is that what He did will never be an old story for me. I hope that every time I’d read about what God did to win my heart, every time I read His Word, I’d be filled with awe and be left astonished before His glory and amazing love but I hope I wouldn’t stop there. I hope and I pray that I will always have a response, and that the response wouldn’t be guilt or shame, I pray that my response would always be to cling to Him, receive His love, and shout it out.

I need a lot of fixing in me, God knows how gruesome I still am but God is still at work in me and by His grace I will press on, I will wrestle and persevere until that day when I see Him face to face.

See I told you I cannot write cohesively but may God bless you and may your joy be complete in Jesus’ name.

Oh and quickly, let me add my favorite quote from the book,

“And because the Beauty loved the Beast, the Beast became more beautiful himself.” – Max Lucado


What’s up


Hi! I am warning you now that this is totally going to be super random.  I totally missed the Lord in 2015. I hadn’t been really in-sync with my spiritual standards and in a lot of ways disconnected from my Savior. There, I said it. Putting it out there! The year 2015 wasn’t a really good year for me and my faith although there were really good moments and times that I’m really grateful about and it wasn’t like the worst  year of my life. It was still great considering how God never let me go and how He still proved Himself faithful even though I was being such a gadfly. So yea, now that 2015 has been gone for a month and a week and 2016 is the new thing now I want to talk about my 2016 so far… (I am pretty much a having a love-hate relationship with it already.) Continue reading



NEW YEAR. I want to believe that I’d be able to fill this page with words as this brand new year starts. I hope that I’d finally put into writing the adventures God will bless me with.

I cannot wait for what God has planned ahead for me. This year, I will dare to believe God for more, I hope you would too.

I need You.

I have got to be honest in here… I went totally far off from God I almost forgot how to be Christian anymore. My prayers are almost non-existent and Jesus feels to me like an old college friend I haven’t seen in ages.

That should totally not be the case. I mean come on self, how could you experience the beautiful gift of the cross and forget how crazy amazing it is to be free and to be in a very loving relationship with the Lord? Oh I don’t know, I sound terrible but I think life has got the best of me. I was overwhelmed with everything else that’s been going through my every day that I forgot to look at the only thing that matters, the only thing that will matter forever: my relationship with my loving Savior.

I did not try to run away. I did not feel like rebelling against my God.  I just somehow along the way lost the awe and the joy of my salvation. I am fully aware this horrid situation I’m in, I think about this everyday and all I really want to do is to go back to those moments when I was full of crazy excitement at the thought of Christ’s love for me. I want to get back to when I was uber kilig at the thought of Jesus pursuing me even when He knew how unworthy I really am of his love.

I know that the Lord will never abandon me and I know that although He feels like a thousand miles away from me He is still watching over me and He is fully aware of the situation I am in. I know that even though I can’t get a clear view of Him right now, He is still at work and He will work His wonders back in my heart.

Ugh I don’t even know where I’m getting at with this post. I just want to get my joy back on. I miss Him terribly. I need my best friend back.

Easter Joy

“Where, O death is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?”

1 Corinthians 15: 55

Easter Sunday; the day we rejoice and thank God for overcoming death for us. Today, we remember how Christ Jesus broke the chains and made us new. Easter Sunday; the day we celebrate the amazing glory of the Lamb of God who conquered the grave.

I couldn’t imagine how it was like for the disciples of Jesus witnessing his death on the cross without knowing that comes Sunday morning they will see the beautiful magnificent Savior they have known and loved now fully alive after that horrible death. Friday was mournful. All that was needed to be done was taken care of by our Savior Jesus Christ. All the suffering Jesus endured that we may live a life of freedom. The Lord died. That Friday on Calvary, JESUS our Lord actually died. I know there was grief, agony was totally in their hearts and hope sure was out of the picture for most of them. Saturday must have sucked; Jesus was their joy, their security, and most of all He was their friend. Then came Sunday morning…

THEY SAW THE EMPTY TOMB. Now that was startling. I don’t know how that felt like to them. And I cannot imagine the joy they felt when they see the Jesus they so love alive and breathing again.

John 20:20 After he said this, he showed them His hands and side. The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord.

Now, I didn’t see what the disciples experienced firsthand. I didn’t see the cross on the Calvary and I didn’t see the empty tomb. But I know they happened and God made my heart see. There is something though that I experienced firsthand, just as the disciples did… it’s the LOVE OF CHRIST and it’s the most amazing of all. I’m overjoyed because everything that Jesus did, He did for each and every one of us. C.S. Lewis once said “He died not for men, but for each man. If each man had been the only man made, He would have done no less.”

Have a joy filled Easter Sunday everyone! Let us celebrate the the LOVE that conquered death! Time to yet again dance on God’s great dance floor! YAAAY. 


Lord Jesus Christ, thank You for the cross. Thank You for the love that endured the shame, the mockery, the thorns, the nails, the stab and all the pain that was thrown at You. Thank You for when You were at the cross and had the power to free yourself from it, You still chose to be there enduring all the pain so that I may not pay for the price of my sins. Lord, You knew so well that I cannot do it without You. You know that the weight of sins is unbearable for a feeble sinner like me, so You carried it and You died with it, and You rose from the death to show me that I can now live a life unashamed and filled with joy because everything has been paid for me once and for all. Thank You for giving me the righteousness to stand before You, Father. Thank You for You made me worthy to be called Your daughter. I am forever in awe of Your great love. I will forever worship You. You alone, my Jesus. Thank You. I can never thank You enough. I love You so much, my Lord. Thank You for loving me and making me Your own. I pray that I every day I will be reminded of this love You have for me, Lord. I pray that every time I hear Your name I will be swept away and rejoice. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Dry Bones

Ezekiel 37: 3-10 He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know”

Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord!’ This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

Then He said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy son of man, and say to it. “This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet – a vast army.

Today I was reminded of this certain part of the Bible. I remembered how I was one of the dry bones; lifeless and numb. I was not able to live a life of purpose and I was living driven by nothing, thus not living at all. Living in the dark, breathing in death and wallowing in sin. Dead, hopeless and empty.

Until, JESUS came into my life.

I was dead.  I thank God because He did not leave me where I was. He did not depart for me to be eternally dead and forever lonely, He reached out for me. He used people to show me He loves me. He gave me breath through His Holy Spirit. He gave me life; a life beyond this world. The Holy Spirit dwells in me now. He has been so amazing; He has been my source of life, my source of strength, peace and light. He fills me with joy and security. HE KEEPS ME ALIVE AND BREATHING.

I love this chapter in the Bible because it always reminds me of how lifeless my life was before I met Christ and how amazing it is to know Him and finally be alive in Him. I didn’t get it before; I didn’t understand how I can be breathing physically yet be spiritually dead. How can someone say she is now finally alive when she has been living since the day she was born? How was I able to feel more alive than I ever was before?

O the beauty of JESUS. Unfathomable and I wouldn’t even dare figure it out. I am so overwhelmed by this great love.

Also, this reminds me that as someone who is already alive in Christ I am now given the opportunity to spread the message of life and to witness dry bones come to life. Always a wonderful sight. J

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

For the Philippines

Everything we hear about the Visayan Region in the Philippines has been completely devastating. There is no other response but to pray, give and be of service to these people affected by the typhoon.

I believe that we are God’s arms and feet on earth and together by God’s love we’ll be able to serve and help these people who lost people they love, lost their homes, lost every possession they have. Let us show them the love of Jesus by praying and caring for them. 

Here are the links to a few organizations where we can give our donations for the people of Visayas:

World Vision Philippines https://www.worldvision.org.ph/content/super-typhoon-yolanda-relief-efforts

Victory Philippines http://victory.org.ph/article/yolanda-relief/

World Food Programme https://www.wfp.org/donate/typhoon-philippines

You can also check this list by Rappler.com for other channels where we can send our help to the people affected by the typhoon: http://www.rappler.com/move-ph/issues/disasters/43300-reliefph-victims-typhoon-yolanda-help

Together, let us pray without ceasing and act in love. Thank you. God bless you. 

Love of God

The past few days I was really just overwhelmed with God’s love. I cannot contain it any longer and I know God did not intend His love to be contained, His love is to be shared so here we go.

John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.”

God although the world does not know Him loved the world. He delights in His creations, He delights in His people and He cannot bear eternity without them, without US. Yes, He is our Creator but He doesn’t want our relationship with Him to end there, HE LONGS TO BE OUR FATHER. And because of the sacrifice Jesus did, He is.

God wants to be with us forever but with our sins it is impossible for us to spend eternity with God. Yet, God in His great love made a way to give us eternal life. He came. 2 Corinthians 5:21 God made Him who had no sin be sin for us, so that we may become the righteousness of God.

Love is the reason Jesus came, Love is the reason He suffered, Love is the reason He died, and LOVE IS THE REASON HE OVERCAME.

1 John 3:1a See what great love the Father has lavished on us that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!

Crazy, isn’t it? JESUS CHRIST the only begotten Son died because of love. He took the full cup of the wrath of God so that we may be called Children of God. We are made right with the Father because of the love of Christ.

God’s love is greater than anything we can imagine. His love is the perfect love and amazingly it is freely given to us; because of that there is no power that can separate us from God.

Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

1 John 4:17 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.

Amazing. I don’t even have words to say anymore.


O Heavenly Father,

Thank You. Thank You for the love that is beyond limits. Thank You for even though You knew me perfectly in my sins You loved and cared for me. I am in awe and just blown away with Your great love. Thank You for loving me, for giving me the life I am not worthy to live. Thank You my God for calling me Your daughter. Forever will I worship You. In Jesus’ glorious name. Amen