Sweet surprise.

Today I had a conversation with a father and his daughter who went pass our store to look for a book. As they were waiting for the book, I had a very lovely conversation with the both of them. I cannot exactly remember how we ended up talking about Christianity but I sure am thankful I had this conversation with them. The dad told me how he was guiding his daughter since she is a new Christian. We talked about how amazing the love of God is and how unconditionally forgiven we are and how unfathomable it is to be loved by the Maker of the universe… we also talked about fellowship and Joseph Prince (i will listen to him preach after i write this, also the book they bought from us is written by him). I saw that they were in love with Jesus and I know that they are aware of how immensely loved they are. (I felt like I saw them almost jumping for joy talking about it. Awesome.) I am super excited to see them again. I hope I get to talk to them again.

After the conversation, I was reminded that God will never ever forget about me. He sent me the dad and the daughter to remind me that He is aware of where I am even if I feel like a thousand miles away from Him. He made me remember that as my Father, He wants and delights in guiding me and carrying me as I get throught this earthly life. I am super thankful. And super joyous.

Again, after running away and hiding… I am beginning to see the light. Thank You, my Abba. ❤😂

O, joy. ❤

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Awake

I was disconnected. I stayed away from God. I tried to hide myself from Him, I felt sick and awful. I felt unworthy of His presence.

Today, I am reminded that I was never really worthy on my own. I am worthy because Christ chose to love me and give me worth. I was really battling, I was depending on myself, trying to make my life look alright without leaning on Him. I can never do it alone. I will always feel dead and dark without my God. Without my eyes on Jesus, I will always strive, aim and stand for nothing.

JESUS; my God, my Light, my source of life. As I get to see a glimpse of His light I was reminded that though I am fully known in my sins, in my awfulness, in my mess… I am fully and immensely LOVED. I am treasured and valued by the King of kings, the Lord of all. I knew I am saved, I did choose to flee away… But there is no separating us from His great love. There is no force great enough to keep me away from HIM and for that I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.

I am reminded that I AM FINALLY ALIVE AND I WILL BE UNTIL ETERNITY.

No worries.

Matthew 6: 25-26 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds in the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

Once there was this girl who believes in God. She really believes in Him, she prays and talks to Him, she does things she thought would please Him. She’s alright she says, as long as she believes in God she’s okay. But she doesn’t understand the amazing power of the love of God, she didn’t understand that knowing God includes knowing that He has a plan for her, a very good one. So the girl worried, she worried a lot, she said she believes God but then she’s always nervous that things will go wrong, that things wouldn’t go the way she wanted it to be. She said Jesus is her Lord and Savior, but when she worries like that she was taking Christ out as the Master of her life.

It really is sad it has to happen to her. She sees herself as a pretty good Christian… until she had a fresh encounter with her Master.  She saw the face of Jesus and His grace made her understand: God is sovereign and He understands what she’s going through. She finally saw that faith is not just knowing, faith is trusting that God has the best plans and He will go through everything with her. Yes, things don’t go the way she wanted it to happen but as soon as she fixed her eyes on the cross the peace of God overwhelmed her very being. She started crying, she realized how foolish she was relying more on herself when her Heavenly Father is already with her and is more than willing to comfort her. She surrendered, He took charge and though things don’t always seem so clear to her and pain still exists… His embrace assures her that He’s got it all under control and that even in the midst of trials she can have joy knowing God is with her and is for her.

Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

You’re not alone.

There are times when people feel alone. There are times when people feel like everyone turned their back from them. Like they keep on screaming but nobody can hear them, when they long for something that is just isn’t there. Sad as it seems, it happens to me and I’m pretty sure it happens to others as well.

Thing is, every time I get the feeling of loneliness, I am reminded that I am too focused on myself, that maybe I was focused more on the love I get than the love I can give. Maybe other people has a different reason, but for me it is this. I get too focused on me and what I get from people that I easily forget the love I keep on receiving, the love that sustains me, the love that gives me life, the love that goes beyond limits; THE LOVE OF GOD that is freely poured out on me.

The love of God. Yes, Jesus in His great love saw the value in me. He loved me just because He chose to. He knew very well that I cannot do it alone. He knew that without me depending on Him I would always feel lonely, I would always feel alone, I would always be broken. When He chose to love me, I don’t know Him and I definitely am not honoring Him. But even before I saw His beauty He chose to pay my debts in full, He chose to die for me. He chose to look on the love He can give rather than the love He can get.

And every time it would hit me; I am reminded that I have not a reason to feel alone. Yes, as a human being my feelings would get all messed up sometimes but I know ( and should always be reminded of) that I am immensely loved by the One who made me, the One who gave me worth, the One who would never leave me nor forsake me, the One who would never turn His back from me. I am amazed and just in awe every time.

It brings so much comfort, so much peace and so much joy knowing that Christ loves you and will always do. He treasures you and will always be with You.

This song. Every time I feel alone, I hear God telling me that He will always be there for me. I am reminded that His voice will always be the sweetest and that I am never forsaken.

To my ever faithful Lover,

Day by day. That is how You work in me, in my life. You are never in a rush, I figured there is no need for time is in Your hands. You know when things are going to happen, You set them perfectly in Your plans and You carry them out completely. You make things happen, You make them happen beautifully. Maybe the word “miracle” sounds so beautiful because the only one who can make it happen is the One most beautiful. Your miracles, nothing can compare. Your miracles, it isn’t just real, it’s amazing on the outside and is much more beautiful from within. Thank You. Thank You for giving me the privilege to witness and experience Your miracles. Thank You because You worked the greatest miracle of my life. You did not magically reformed me, You miraculously transformed me. I am no longer dead, You renewed me, You saved me from the darkness I’ve been living. You made me know You, You made Your love known to me, that was beyond amazing and that alone was a wonderful miracle. My salvation; all gratitude, all praises, all the glory belongs to You. You are most beautiful. You filled me up with life, with love, with joy and peace. You alone are everything and You are the only One worth saying this line to: “You complete me”. 

joy, peace and love in Christ alone

You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. (Psalm 16:11 NIV)

Amazing is the joy, peace, love and security I found in the name of Jesus. Never did I think about such joy, such peace that would blow me away every time. When I found the life in Him, problems did not go away, life is still filled with troubles yet I found my peace, I found astonishing peace in knowing that He cares for me, and loves me as His daughter. I found security, I know I would never be forsaken. Though there are times when I feel defeated, my Heavenly Dad reminds me that He already won the victory. He won it all for me and you and with Him with and for us, everything will go just exactly as He wills it to be. ( His will is good, perfect and pleasing. Read Romans 12:2)

I am filled with genuine joy as I fix my eyes on Him. He is who He says He is and He is everything we need to conquer this life on earth. ❤

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (Philippians 4:4, NIV)

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7 NIV)

2012

Today’s the last Sunday of the year. I was just grateful and I was really blessed with today’s Sunday service, it wasn’t the ordinary pastor-preaches-everyone-else-listens type of service (though I love those), today’s service was one of those that some members of the church talk about their year with God, what are the things they are thankful for and the times when they were really just in awe of God’s greatness. I really love hearing those stories  and as I was listening to those people I started to think about how God worked in my life this year, how He proved Himself faithful, and how He showed me He loves me unconditionally.

I wanted to make a list of all the things He did for me this year. Then I thought; how can I ever be able to count the number of those moments? How can I ever be able to write down all the goodness my Creator has showered upon my life? How can I measure something so immense that no words can really be close enough to describe?

So I decided to list down just 5 most amazing moments I had with God for the last months: (I had a lot, a lot, a lot, and I am overwhelmed. Thank You, Lord!)

1. Salvation – So when this year started, I didn’t know Jesus. Okay, maybe I know He is God but I didn’t know Him personally. I had my own idea of who He is. I thought I was good and okay and that I’m not really as sinful and that my works can save me from death. When this year started, I don’t even know where I’ll go after death on this planet!  June of this year, I started knowing who God is. I was able to surrender my life to Christ, to stop trusting in myself and turn to Him in everything, to trust Him with all my life. That was the best of the best-est decision I’ve made in my life. I started to fix my eyes on Jesus, and life has always been exciting. I have been made new! God gave me a new heart, a new life in Him and I am astonished!

But now in Christ Jesus you who once far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ. Ephesians 2:13

2. Forgiveness – As God forgave all my trespasses, He made me forgive others too. This felt like freedom. Really! I was drowning in a sea of resentments and anger then God made me realize that I would not be free if I would still hold on to these things. He forgave me; I need to forgive. I think the bondage of unforgiveness is not on the one you are not forgiving (though that would be a relief for them too if you forgive), but really it is you tangled up in it. Storing those feelings in your heart will never help you; it will just make you grow bitter and angry. When I finally decided to forgive, God threw off all the chains. Seriously, it feels like those moments when you start to see a glimpse of light after long hours of darkness; it feels like having a thorn literally pulled out from your heart. That was amazing. That was a one of His most wonderful miracles in my life. I never thought I’d be able to remove those things in my heart. Because of His love and because He forgave me, I was able to see the light.

3. Christmas – God reminded me of His great love for me this Christmas season. I really am in awe of how He was so humble, so loving and so good. I really can’t explain the feeling of understanding the true reason for Christmas. It also reminded me of God’s faithfulness to His people. I was really surprised when I learned about the prophet Isaiah’s prophecy about Jesus’ birth. That truly hit me because that was pretty indescribable. Amazing! God is faithful! He truly is! The birth of Jesus is proof!

4.  Times of Battle – HA! I know it’s a bit odd to be thankful for tough times. It seems odd for me too. Then I realized that every time I am faced with a “battle” those are moments that I can see God clearly. Those battles are the times when I seek Him earnestly, and I grow closer and more deeply in love with Him. It’s not easy those times, and I have to admit how I still lack the faith at times but God is never ignorant of our cries. He is our ever present help in trouble. When times are hard, I seek Him and the comfort He gives is never ending, He fills me up with peace and love. He lets me know that He will never leave me and that He is in control. (Thank God He is in control!)

The Lord will give strength unto his people; the Lord will bless his people with peace.                                                                                                 Psalm 29:11

5. People – I’m grateful for the people I’ve met this year. I’ve met tons and most of them are God’s children. I have been blessed with a lot of people to encourage me in my walk with God. I really thank God for them. I admire them for always having the time to hear my stories when I’m upset or when I’m overjoyed and for sharing their own experiences with me. I’m also really happy to see how they allow God to work in their lives and  just be filled with the love of God. Really uplifting!

I have a lot more things to be thankful for this year. I really was grateful to bear witness of God’s amazing wonders and I just couldn’t wait for 2013!

Merry Christmas everyone!

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LUKE 2:9-11

Father, thank You for the love so great. God, thank You for humbly coming down on earth to give us hope, joy, peace and life. Lord, thank You for this amazing life in You. I pray that as we celebrate this Christmas day, we are reminded of Your greatest gift to humanity: Yourself. Thank You, Lord Jesus. I love you.

 

CHRISTMAS is all about JESUS

Christmas is coming in a week. I am so excited for it is my first Christmas as a Christian. Praise God for that! Now really, what is Christmas all about?

When I was a kid, I loved Christmas because it means shopping and receiving gifts, parties and meeting relatives I haven’t seen for a while. Christmas for me before was a huge thing to celebrate without knowing that we celebrate it not because of gifts and the clothes and the reunions, it’s about the baby who was born thousands of years ago to bring salvation into this dying world. Now that I met JESUS, I was given the amazing opportunity to KNOW the TRUTH. Now I know and I am assured that CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT JESUS. It is about our GOD humbling Himself and became flesh to experience worldly struggles, to become man to save man from death. He overcame everything for us. What an amazing GOD He is!

ISAIAH 7:14 NIV Therefore the Lord Himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.

LUKE 2:10-12 NIV But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. Today in the town of David a SAVIOR has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”

I hope that as this Christmas comes, we are reminded of the baby born in a manger thousands of years ago, to give us the life He wants us to live. I pray that as we celebrate Christmas, we put JESUS at the center of these celebrations because truly if our God did not come down on earth, where will we be?  

ISAIAH 9:6 NIV For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

That verse was written in the Old Testament and that’s who JESUS is. And JESUS is the only reason we have Christmas.