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 In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.  1 John 4:10

I cannot believe that the last time I posted something here was, well, more than a year ago. I am never a good writer to begin with and now I feel like I don’t even know a thing about writing anymore. Anyway, I just finished reading Max Lucado’s He chose the nails and I’m feeling a lot of emotions. I’ve been reading it every year since I got it in 2012, mostly I read it during the Lent and right now it’s the Lenten season so I picked it up again. I wanted to write something cohesive but I’m afraid I can’t do that. (I’m such a mess.) But hey, bear with me. I just really want to reiterate how crazy God’s love is. I know I would always describe God’s loves as crazy (I have a limited vocabulary, people) and honestly (I tried to widen my range) I just can’t find a better word because it really is!

Reading through this book for the nth time reminded how filthy my sins really are before Him. I know this isn’t entirely new and I guess my prayer in this is that what He did will never be an old story for me. I hope that every time I’d read about what God did to win my heart, every time I read His Word, I’d be filled with awe and be left astonished before His glory and amazing love but I hope I wouldn’t stop there. I hope and I pray that I will always have a response, and that the response wouldn’t be guilt or shame, I pray that my response would always be to cling to Him, receive His love, and shout it out.

I need a lot of fixing in me, God knows how gruesome I still am but God is still at work in me and by His grace I will press on, I will wrestle and persevere until that day when I see Him face to face.

See I told you I cannot write cohesively but may God bless you and may your joy be complete in Jesus’ name.

Oh and quickly, let me add my favorite quote from the book,

“And because the Beauty loved the Beast, the Beast became more beautiful himself.” – Max Lucado

Dry Bones

Ezekiel 37: 3-10 He asked me, “Son of man, can these bones live?” I said, “Sovereign Lord, you alone know”

Then he said to me, “Prophesy to these bones and say to them, ‘Dry bones, hear the word of the Lord!’ This is what the Sovereign Lord says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the Lord.’”

So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together, bone to bone. I looked, and tendons and flesh appeared on them and skin covered them, but there was no breath in them.

Then He said to me, “Prophesy to the breath; prophesy son of man, and say to it. “This is what the Sovereign Lord says: Come, breath, from the four winds and breathe into these slain, that they may live.’” So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet – a vast army.

Today I was reminded of this certain part of the Bible. I remembered how I was one of the dry bones; lifeless and numb. I was not able to live a life of purpose and I was living driven by nothing, thus not living at all. Living in the dark, breathing in death and wallowing in sin. Dead, hopeless and empty.

Until, JESUS came into my life.

I was dead.  I thank God because He did not leave me where I was. He did not depart for me to be eternally dead and forever lonely, He reached out for me. He used people to show me He loves me. He gave me breath through His Holy Spirit. He gave me life; a life beyond this world. The Holy Spirit dwells in me now. He has been so amazing; He has been my source of life, my source of strength, peace and light. He fills me with joy and security. HE KEEPS ME ALIVE AND BREATHING.

I love this chapter in the Bible because it always reminds me of how lifeless my life was before I met Christ and how amazing it is to know Him and finally be alive in Him. I didn’t get it before; I didn’t understand how I can be breathing physically yet be spiritually dead. How can someone say she is now finally alive when she has been living since the day she was born? How was I able to feel more alive than I ever was before?

O the beauty of JESUS. Unfathomable and I wouldn’t even dare figure it out. I am so overwhelmed by this great love.

Also, this reminds me that as someone who is already alive in Christ I am now given the opportunity to spread the message of life and to witness dry bones come to life. Always a wonderful sight. J

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

Awake

I was disconnected. I stayed away from God. I tried to hide myself from Him, I felt sick and awful. I felt unworthy of His presence.

Today, I am reminded that I was never really worthy on my own. I am worthy because Christ chose to love me and give me worth. I was really battling, I was depending on myself, trying to make my life look alright without leaning on Him. I can never do it alone. I will always feel dead and dark without my God. Without my eyes on Jesus, I will always strive, aim and stand for nothing.

JESUS; my God, my Light, my source of life. As I get to see a glimpse of His light I was reminded that though I am fully known in my sins, in my awfulness, in my mess… I am fully and immensely LOVED. I am treasured and valued by the King of kings, the Lord of all. I knew I am saved, I did choose to flee away… But there is no separating us from His great love. There is no force great enough to keep me away from HIM and for that I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.

I am reminded that I AM FINALLY ALIVE AND I WILL BE UNTIL ETERNITY.