I was disconnected. I stayed away from God. I tried to hide myself from Him, I felt sick and awful. I felt unworthy of His presence.
Today, I am reminded that I was never really worthy on my own. I am worthy because Christ chose to love me and give me worth. I was really battling, I was depending on myself, trying to make my life look alright without leaning on Him. I can never do it alone. I will always feel dead and dark without my God. Without my eyes on Jesus, I will always strive, aim and stand for nothing.
JESUS; my God, my Light, my source of life. As I get to see a glimpse of His light I was reminded that though I am fully known in my sins, in my awfulness, in my mess… I am fully and immensely LOVED. I am treasured and valued by the King of kings, the Lord of all. I knew I am saved, I did choose to flee away… But there is no separating us from His great love. There is no force great enough to keep me away from HIM and for that I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.
I am reminded that I AM FINALLY ALIVE AND I WILL BE UNTIL ETERNITY.