I need You.

I have got to be honest in here… I went totally far off from God I almost forgot how to be Christian anymore. My prayers are almost non-existent and Jesus feels to me like an old college friend I haven’t seen in ages.

That should totally not be the case. I mean come on self, how could you experience the beautiful gift of the cross and forget how crazy amazing it is to be free and to be in a very loving relationship with the Lord? Oh I don’t know, I sound terrible but I think life has got the best of me. I was overwhelmed with everything else that’s been going through my every day that I forgot to look at the only thing that matters, the only thing that will matter forever: my relationship with my loving Savior.

I did not try to run away. I did not feel like rebelling against my God.  I just somehow along the way lost the awe and the joy of my salvation. I am fully aware this horrid situation I’m in, I think about this everyday and all I really want to do is to go back to those moments when I was full of crazy excitement at the thought of Christ’s love for me. I want to get back to when I was uber kilig at the thought of Jesus pursuing me even when He knew how unworthy I really am of his love.

I know that the Lord will never abandon me and I know that although He feels like a thousand miles away from me He is still watching over me and He is fully aware of the situation I am in. I know that even though I can’t get a clear view of Him right now, He is still at work and He will work His wonders back in my heart.

Ugh I don’t even know where I’m getting at with this post. I just want to get my joy back on. I miss Him terribly. I need my best friend back.



I was disconnected. I stayed away from God. I tried to hide myself from Him, I felt sick and awful. I felt unworthy of His presence.

Today, I am reminded that I was never really worthy on my own. I am worthy because Christ chose to love me and give me worth. I was really battling, I was depending on myself, trying to make my life look alright without leaning on Him. I can never do it alone. I will always feel dead and dark without my God. Without my eyes on Jesus, I will always strive, aim and stand for nothing.

JESUS; my God, my Light, my source of life. As I get to see a glimpse of His light I was reminded that though I am fully known in my sins, in my awfulness, in my mess… I am fully and immensely LOVED. I am treasured and valued by the King of kings, the Lord of all. I knew I am saved, I did choose to flee away… But there is no separating us from His great love. There is no force great enough to keep me away from HIM and for that I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL.


You’re not alone.

There are times when people feel alone. There are times when people feel like everyone turned their back from them. Like they keep on screaming but nobody can hear them, when they long for something that is just isn’t there. Sad as it seems, it happens to me and I’m pretty sure it happens to others as well.

Thing is, every time I get the feeling of loneliness, I am reminded that I am too focused on myself, that maybe I was focused more on the love I get than the love I can give. Maybe other people has a different reason, but for me it is this. I get too focused on me and what I get from people that I easily forget the love I keep on receiving, the love that sustains me, the love that gives me life, the love that goes beyond limits; THE LOVE OF GOD that is freely poured out on me.

The love of God. Yes, Jesus in His great love saw the value in me. He loved me just because He chose to. He knew very well that I cannot do it alone. He knew that without me depending on Him I would always feel lonely, I would always feel alone, I would always be broken. When He chose to love me, I don’t know Him and I definitely am not honoring Him. But even before I saw His beauty He chose to pay my debts in full, He chose to die for me. He chose to look on the love He can give rather than the love He can get.

And every time it would hit me; I am reminded that I have not a reason to feel alone. Yes, as a human being my feelings would get all messed up sometimes but I know ( and should always be reminded of) that I am immensely loved by the One who made me, the One who gave me worth, the One who would never leave me nor forsake me, the One who would never turn His back from me. I am amazed and just in awe every time.

It brings so much comfort, so much peace and so much joy knowing that Christ loves you and will always do. He treasures you and will always be with You.

This song. Every time I feel alone, I hear God telling me that He will always be there for me. I am reminded that His voice will always be the sweetest and that I am never forsaken.

To my ever faithful Lover,

Day by day. That is how You work in me, in my life. You are never in a rush, I figured there is no need for time is in Your hands. You know when things are going to happen, You set them perfectly in Your plans and You carry them out completely. You make things happen, You make them happen beautifully. Maybe the word “miracle” sounds so beautiful because the only one who can make it happen is the One most beautiful. Your miracles, nothing can compare. Your miracles, it isn’t just real, it’s amazing on the outside and is much more beautiful from within. Thank You. Thank You for giving me the privilege to witness and experience Your miracles. Thank You because You worked the greatest miracle of my life. You did not magically reformed me, You miraculously transformed me. I am no longer dead, You renewed me, You saved me from the darkness I’ve been living. You made me know You, You made Your love known to me, that was beyond amazing and that alone was a wonderful miracle. My salvation; all gratitude, all praises, all the glory belongs to You. You are most beautiful. You filled me up with life, with love, with joy and peace. You alone are everything and You are the only One worth saying this line to: “You complete me”. 

joy, peace and love in Christ alone

You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. (Psalm 16:11 NIV)

Amazing is the joy, peace, love and security I found in the name of Jesus. Never did I think about such joy, such peace that would blow me away every time. When I found the life in Him, problems did not go away, life is still filled with troubles yet I found my peace, I found astonishing peace in knowing that He cares for me, and loves me as His daughter. I found security, I know I would never be forsaken. Though there are times when I feel defeated, my Heavenly Dad reminds me that He already won the victory. He won it all for me and you and with Him with and for us, everything will go just exactly as He wills it to be. ( His will is good, perfect and pleasing. Read Romans 12:2)

I am filled with genuine joy as I fix my eyes on Him. He is who He says He is and He is everything we need to conquer this life on earth. ❤

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (Philippians 4:4, NIV)

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:7 NIV)

Merry Christmas everyone!


LUKE 2:9-11

Father, thank You for the love so great. God, thank You for humbly coming down on earth to give us hope, joy, peace and life. Lord, thank You for this amazing life in You. I pray that as we celebrate this Christmas day, we are reminded of Your greatest gift to humanity: Yourself. Thank You, Lord Jesus. I love you.


CHRISTMAS is all about JESUS

Christmas is coming in a week. I am so excited for it is my first Christmas as a Christian. Praise God for that! Now really, what is Christmas all about?

When I was a kid, I loved Christmas because it means shopping and receiving gifts, parties and meeting relatives I haven’t seen for a while. Christmas for me before was a huge thing to celebrate without knowing that we celebrate it not because of gifts and the clothes and the reunions, it’s about the baby who was born thousands of years ago to bring salvation into this dying world. Now that I met JESUS, I was given the amazing opportunity to KNOW the TRUTH. Now I know and I am assured that CHRISTMAS IS ALL ABOUT JESUS. It is about our GOD humbling Himself and became flesh to experience worldly struggles, to become man to save man from death. He overcame everything for us. What an amazing GOD He is!

ISAIAH 7:14 NIV Therefore the Lord Himself will give you a sign: The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and will call him Immanuel.

LUKE 2:10-12 NIV But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. Today in the town of David a SAVIOR has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”

I hope that as this Christmas comes, we are reminded of the baby born in a manger thousands of years ago, to give us the life He wants us to live. I pray that as we celebrate Christmas, we put JESUS at the center of these celebrations because truly if our God did not come down on earth, where will we be?  

ISAIAH 9:6 NIV For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

That verse was written in the Old Testament and that’s who JESUS is. And JESUS is the only reason we have Christmas.

It’s all about You, Jesus.

It’s not about me, it’s all about Him. As I finish reading my first Max Lucado book, I was reminded of a lot of things. Most importantly, I was reminded that in all things it is God’s name that must be glorified. Here are some points that I really appreciate and I’m glad I was reminded of:

1. As I claim to be a child of God, it is my response to make His name known to people who doesnt yet. It is a priviledge for me to exalt His name and be an ambassador of His love here on earth. I must be reminded that I am not doing this to earn salvation, but I am doing it because He already saved me and because of it I was given the grace to glorify His name and make His good works be known to men. I also would like to share to you that the things that I’m doing now, it’s not my self deciding to do it, it is the Holy Spirit leading me and leading me to do what is right and what is according to His word. I still sin but apart from God I am nothing but a total wreck, so I praise God for loving a disaster that I am. Praise God, He is merciful and He doesn’t keep records of wrongs. I hope that as you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior that you would accept His spirit to lead you on, move your life and live it for His name.

2 Corinthians 3:18 And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. Continue reading